In search of Nirvana is a photographic field research of contemporary western China. These photographs were made in 12 provincial-level regions in western China from 2013 to 2018.

Having spent my childhood in Hong Kong, my idea of China was vague. China was too distant from me, not only physically but significantly also in its ideology. I realized there was part of me missing. Therefore, I consciously travelled to western China to search for the interconnection between my racial identity and China.

This project looks into the absurdity of contemporary Chinese society and depicts the daily life in China that is paradoxically existed in two senses - harmonious and manipulated. In recent decades, China has passed through an era of abnormally distorted ideological struggles in a highly compressed manner. It has rapidly moved towards urbanization and capitalization; the gap between urban and rural areas is severe, and the highly centralized monitoring system becomes extremely popular across Chinese cities. In this atmosphere, this project derives the symbolic meaning of the image. The Sky burial and tourists, plastic flowers in freezing winter, the concept of patriotism, the nuclear-weapon project, and the large-scale abandoned stadium are all flashpoints of image tension. The imagery is the mixture of Chinese ambition and traditional Chineseness. The paradoxical immersion represents the Chinese (national) identity, which is also an eternal cultural issue, especially for Hongkongers.

Nirvana is a Buddhism term, which has a close meaning to disengagement. Buddhists believe that they can find Nirvana in the west. Once people arrive at the Nirvana, he or she can reach endless happiness and suffer no pain. I started the journey with the intention to search for Nirvana and the answer to what I am. However, I failed both in the end.